Anyways so yeah, I’ve been trying out color contacts lately. It started with brown lenses, something relatively safe - and from there I realized how much more fun it was when worked with mascara and eyeliner. I was hooked after that.

Right now the newest additions to my collection are violet and green contacts. I haven’t gotten around to try the green, but I’ve worn the violet and I’m liking it! It’s most prominent when I step out in daylight, but the color isn’t too bright to the point of making me look like an alien or something, so yayy. I think I may have pictures somewhere in my camera, let me find the time to look them up :)

Apart from that, I’ve been quite curious about Liese’s Bubble Hair Color.

It’s in the form of foam, making the entire dying process less messy. Best part is that it seems to only cause minimal damage to the hair with added amino acid in the dye plus an included leave-in conditioner - that’s really the selling point for me. The only cons I saw from consumers were the strong chemical smell that lingers for days, and its price which is steeper than other drugstore brands. Not too bad. I’m thinking something red or light brown… ;)

P.S. I love my current desktop wallpaper! It’s of a Lacoste perfume campaign from 2 years back, but very pretty nevertheless ♥

I can blame the long absence in new posts on the fact that my laptop broke down on me last month and it has been awaiting a new motherboard ever since.

It sounds logical enough, but no - the simple truth is, I have just not been focused enough to put down my thoughts in words. My mind wanders to all sorts of places and if forced to hold still for a second, I honestly don’t know what kind of mental picture it would paint.

I’d like to write about my current state of life, but I don’t have a clue as to what it is. I’m pretty sure I qualify to be the poster child of Soul Searching.

Last night I woke up with a jolt at 2.21 AM. My eyes flew open and I did not know what to do with myself. It was the strangest feeling and I ended up distracting myself with thoughts of an episode of CSI New York I saw this week, then onto salsa dancing, and finally I drifted back to sleep halfway through mentally listing all my favorite kinds of soups (turned out to be a pretty long list too).

In my proper waking moments, I notice that all I want to do lately involves the non-confrontational - to hide beneath blinding lights, to bury myself in the deep pulse of music, and to sink into a haze of mixed drinks.

No more talking now, because words are just pointless sometimes :)

But I suppose everyone must move on at some point, and this is mine.

Hello life of temporary unemployment!

A picture of my poodle coz it’s been forever since she was featured here - she’s six now, but still a babygirl in every way <3

I didn’t expect to find profoundness when I sat down for a viewing of the Nanny McPhee movie the other day.

But hasn’t it always been an age-old dilemma for us humans - caught in between our wants and needs like tidal waves, never knowing for sure if they will lead us to the safety of the shore, or take us further into the abyss of the ocean?

Need. It sounds simple enough. But just how important is a need? How does it uphold itself when placed against something else - love?

Many people would say that love is the most powerful feeling you can have. Just three words, I love you, can translate to an infinite tapestry of meanings and intentions.

While I cannot deny the depth of this emotion we call love, I was always more intrigued by the gravitational pull that a need brings.

Because really, you can love someone but does it come hand in hand with needing them too?

To me, love represents freedom, ray of lights, possibilities, vast openness, and a steady stream of heartbeats.

And need just seems to be the polar opposite end of the spectrum… entrapment, darkness, entanglement, lack of breathing space, and the occasional skip in heartbeats.

One gives you wings to let you fly, and the other, roots that bind you.

There’s no right answer, but I know my preference and the precise reason is this -

Once upon a time, someone said to me, “I need you.”

Those words instantly placed cage bars around me. I thought of fleeing, but how could I walk away when my existence meant something to someone?

And in that moment, I realized that he has made me need him too.

It’s when you know that there could be a million stars that dot the night sky, but only one will shine unceasingly until you have been safely guided to port. A place for the heart to call home.

Years gone by now, there have been numerous chapters that started and ended with differing characters. And till today I know that giving up on him was, ultimately the hardest thing I had to do.

Yes, even harder than needing him in the first place.

My birthday this year, for example :) It was very low-key if you compare it with last year’s birthday bash that Chris came up with as a surprise, with the help from some of my dearest friends.

For 2010, I celebrated with my family over a nice dinner at Victoria Station. Then there was the lovely session with my high school girlfriends and some Japanese yummyness at Zen. Later on it was a night of deja vu when I met up with the rest of the high school crowd at Station One where they were waiting with a birthday cake - two years ago JKL arranged for a birthday gathering for me at the very same place, and I guess he wants to turn it into a tradition ahahah. It’s not the most glamorous spot, but it holds warm memories for me just because of the people who were there with me on the night I turned 24, and now 26 :D

Not to forget, a wonderful birthday treat at Alexis Ampang from the boyfriend, who also got me a Canon Ixus 130 - my very first digicam in over four years y’all, can you imagine the excitement! :P I loved all the little trinkets I received from friends and my sisters too, I suppose they really know just how fascinated I am with accessories. Thank you for the necklaces, bracelet, hairband, etc! If I remember to be hardworking, I’ll put up some pictures sometime soon.

To update on something more recent - a funny thing happened yesterday at work. It was lunchtime and my boss and I were the only people left in the office. I wanted to head downstairs to the bank and was holding an envelope which contained the necessary documents. Before I stepped out, I went to inform my boss… but just as I was about to speak, her gaze zeroed in on the envelope in my hand, and then her eyes went wide.

It took me a split second to understand why - turnover rate has been quite scary in the company lately, and I guess my boss assumed the worst of what I was holding in the envelope - to which I quickly said, “Oh no! This is for the bank. I was going to tell you that I’m off to the bank right now, to settle some stuff.”

My boss visibly relaxed and responded with a laugh.

And I was glad I didn’t become the cause of a heart attack yesterday.. almost, but not quite ;) Teehee.

11PM carwash. 12AM mushroom soup. Being ditched by JKL for a pretty girl, episode two. Ikea meatballs. Iron Man 2 - is Justin Hammer gonna be the bad guy in the third movie? Bangsar mamak with long time no see people :). Road trip to Klang. Bak kut teh at Old Klang Road at 1AM. Good night Sunday at 3AM.

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It ate up 3 entries when I tried posting a couple of days ago.. ‘Impossible to publish’? Sheesh!

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Floral flats from Cotton On; Coach legacy stripes bag; Diana F+ Lomo cam; fluffy white teddy bear from Ty; and ♥Me ring bought in Bangsar

Sometimes materialistic happiness is better than no happiness at all.. :)

I thought tonight’s cure would involve alcohol and cigarettes.

However, it turns out that the essential ingredients were more along the lines of yummy bak kut teh from THE famous shop in Kepong called Ka Ka (like finally, after craving it for over a year now!).

And not forgetting good company in the form of a caring friend who kept asking what I wanted to do next. The feeling that the night was all mine, it was so foreign that I didn’t quite know how to take it all in. So I decided it was time to head home at 2.30AM.

This week hasn’t been the easiest to go through, but I guess I’ll just have to deal with it one problem at a time without forgetting to smile every once in awhile. And well, knowing that I’m blessed with this thing called Friendship.. it helps in many wondrous ways.

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