I was sitting in front of the computer when my chair started shaking bit by bit. I thought it was just my headache. Then the news came pouring in.

I felt it. Did you? :( *prays for everyone’s safety*

I’m sleepy but I can’t go to bed yet until I’m done with 2 reports tonight. A good time for taking online quizzes? I think so.

From Colorgenics:
You are longing for a little love and tenderness. At present you are feeling very sensitive and need a sympathetic shoulder to lean on. You don’t need any further stresses, strains or arguments so take a deep breath and relax.

You are greatly impressed by individuality and have interest in people who have outstanding qualities. You try to imitate those people that you admire and their characteristics, hoping that you will be able to display similar qualities in your own personality.

The results were 80% accurate. Hmm.

And on a lighter note…

You Are “Dizzy and Giddy”

What Japanese Smiley Are You?

This one got me laughing. :) Okay back to assignment-ing. (@_@)

On certain days, it’s a night out in the city.
Big crowds. Pulsating music. Spinning under bright lights. Nursing glasses of colourful drinks. Sitting in a fast car on a straight stretch of the highway with the windows down and the wind making a mess of your hair. Screaming your heart out because all your other friends are doing the same. Go crazy, you’re only living for the moment.

On other days, it’s staying indoors and inhaling the quietness.
Hanging out at the balcony and counting stars. Conversations with a good friend that would last till the sun came up. Munching on crackers and sipping hot chocolate. Good friend talks about SK II facial masks that cost RM600 and you laugh at your friend because he’s just so metrosexual. Thoughts free-flowing in the open air.

On such days it doesn’t seem that hard to feel alive. Not hard at all.

Okay it’s confirmed… From May till August I’ll be doing my internship at Midvalley, at one of the advertising agencies there. Pray that it’ll be a good learning experience for me. :P At least the dress code around the office is casual. I asked and apparently I can even wear jeans to work. It’s great coz jeans are my second skin anyway, hehe. Feel free to come find me during lunchtime if any of you happen to be around Midvalley, yeah?

But that’ll be in my next semester. Right now I need to focus on my finishing my current (horrible, torturous, stressful) semester first. Ergh. ;( Some days are tough - really tough. They nip and gnaw at your spirit and it’s too easy to just sink into perpetual misery. But the good days pull me through…

My friend Jimmy Lee likes to party and he likes to dance, especially the Melbourne Shuffle. And tonight as we were talking, he had the idea of a government-friendly shuffle party.

The venue? McDonald’s.

So instead of alcohol, we’d get high on Coke.

And instead of drugs, we’d be popping fries.

Oh, “and the entrance gift for each person would be a Happy Meal.”

Anybody up for it? Haha. :) That was 1% out of the nonsense that usually comes up in our conversations nowadays. The stress of assignments are getting to us, can you tell?

I don’t want to be
Anything other than what I’ve been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I’m tired of looking ’round rooms
Wondering what I’ve got to do
Or who I’m supposed to be
I don’t want to be anything other than me

This was a favourite song of mine back when I was 16 or something… the words are just really inspiring. :) (And if you plan on downloading the song, do get the original version by LeeAnn Womack, which I think is miles better than Ronan Keating’s. :P)

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you’ll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance…. I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin’ might mean takin’ chances but they’re worth takin’
Lovin’ might be a mistake but it’s worth makin’
Don’t let some hell bent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to sellin’ out reconsider
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance…. I hope you dance
I hope you dance…. I hope you dance
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone.)

I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you’ll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

Dance…. I hope you dance.

In other news, Ian turned 24 today (well.. Sunday) so happy birthday! And thank you for the barbecue party… too bad no one got thrown into the pool. *boo* Next time maybe? ;) Also as a public announcement, if it’s possible please don’t ever get into the topic of dogs with either Ian or Becky. You will die laughing of their dog stories/impressions… you have been warned. Eeks.

Life’s still hectic with assignments and Yearbook stuff and whatnots. One more month till the holidays are here, why does it feel like a lifetime away though.. Chatting with Ed the housemate and he’s telling me to take care and be strong and not to let myself be too influenced by other people and all that, coz everyone in the house will be moving out once the semester ends so it”ll be goodbye time then. Haha, it sounds so dramatic.. It’s almost like we’re all never going to see each other again.. but the reality is that our future houses will be on opposite sides of the main Sri Kembangan road, and only 5 minutes’ drive away. Oh, plus I’m in the same major as Ed, Seen, Jimmy, and Jeen. Haha pshh. So I doubt I’d be wasting much tears on a tragic farewell with them. Umm yeah. :P

Having stayed away from home and being under one roof with people you’re not related to… I have to say that it’s been a bumpy ride. You get conflicts (cold wars) and unfriendly (”oh excuse me, do we know each other?”) housemates sometimes.. But then there’s also cases of close bonds being formed, of course. I got pretty lucky with this year’s bunch and it’s been good and drama-free. So to the folks at D40B - thanks for the fun and craziness. Whee.

So I’ve been thinking.. A blog can be as personal/impersonal as you want it to be, it all depends on the owner, doesn’t it? Yeah well if you’d been following my entries you’d realize that they probably don’t really tell you much about the person that I am.. everything’s just barely scratching the surface. :P Most of the time I feel the need to hold back or to filter what I’m saying, for privacy reasons or whatever. Well, here’s a moment of honesty for you.. just coz I’m in the mood to ramble, heh.

I actually had a pretty bad week last week… It’s just the usual mix of personal problems that got too much to handle. I wasn’t even aware of how affected I was until I found myself blinking back tears while having lunch with a friend. (And I rarely cry in public.) My friend got worried and kept asking what had happened.. And still I told her, “Nothing.. I’m fine.” Silly, isn’t it? I guess I thought I could deal with things on my own, and never bothered to share the burden with anyone. I remember when I was a kid, I would get sick and not want to tell my parents about it each time. Even when my forehead was burning up with fever, I’d sit quietly and act like nothing’s wrong. I thought if I waited long enough, the sickness would go away by itself. Haha like I said - silly. And now, many years later I still have the habit of keeping problems to myself and hoping they would disappear in due time.

Well this time the main problem is one that hits very close to the heart. So it’s no wonder that I can’t help being emotional about it… It’s just something I need to work out with someone, and I guess it’s up to me to make a decision. The hard part is that there’s no right answer - something that they never taught us in Malaysia’s exam-oriented education system - and it would be too easy to just runaway from having to do anything about it. But the decision is an eventual thing that I have to make.. if I remain silent now, it’s going to return anyhow. Maybe next week, maybe next month, maybe next year. It’s an eternal question, ya know? But no matter what I decide on, I hope he knows that it’s for the best. Coz that’s all I want for everyone…

I’m so thankful that there were kind souls who were willing to listen to me and being concerned and all. I felt a lot lighter after that. *phew* And this week’s gonna be better, fingers crossed. :)