So what’s been going on lately? Offhand I’d say nothing much…

Well, there was the Saturday night I got wasted at Asian Heritage Row (this has happened twice - I’m so not touching anymore alcohol if I happen to be anywhere on this street! :P). Yeahh, I fell asleep at the mamak stall once we got out of the club, Mojo. Yeahh, I couldn’t walk on my own to the car - thanks Lawrence and Esther for helping me, hehe. ;(

Still, it was a highly enjoyable outing with some people who I finally got to see for the first time this year - Hong, Sally, Garick, YongChia (okie he doesn’t count since I’ve met up with him during my spontaneous roadtrip to Melaka in January), and the aforementioned Lawrence and Esther. :D Lotsa mad dancing and laughing, which are 2 of my favourite things ever. LoL You guys better be satisfied at seeing me getting soooo beyond tipsy for once!! Hmphh.

That was last week though, this week’s been a relatively tame one thus far. Let’s see, I drank tea at Segafredo. I drank coffee at Starbucks. I drank beer at Music Story (this music cafe in Serdang which used to be called Feeling Cafe during my MMU days, ahh I had fond memories of this place :D). I ate sushi at Section 14’s Sushi King, which was one of the better outlets in Klang Valley I’d say. I ate roadside stalls’ food in Pudu. I hung out at PJ Old Town’s A&W for 2 hours without ordering anything… ;) Yupp, that was about it.

Oh, I also got engaged in some pretty interesting conversations. I mean, how often do people talk about NLP? It was certainly an eye opener, though I don’t necessarily agree with its motives, and some people would even call it a mind manipulation skill. If you’re too lazy to read the Wikipedia explanation, NLP is basically about utilising all forms of self-communication in order to get a desired outcome from others, for instance securing the job during an interview or even scoring with a hot chick/guy. ;)

On a more sobering note, a friend of mine spoke of going for a body check up - to test for HIV/AIDS. It’s mostly just to qualm some very minimal worries, but still. Good grief. :( It hit me then that being an adult can be really scary sometimes…

Right, just to end this with something a li’l brighter - DeHao aka Dhao came back to Malaysia for a visit recently, and it was great catching up with him as he updated us on his life in Brisbane. :D Pictures are as per below.

Me and Dhao, look at that Hongkie hairstyle haha!

Me and Dhao again

Ian and Ray, in a very stoned moment :P

This is a simple case of wanting. For a fleeting second, I step into a scene where I open my eyes to find you next to me, smiling a smile of a dozen sunbeams.

And there is no past, no present, no future. It is as if time has failed to exist and I fear nothing anymore. And all the words sleeping in the crevices of our hearts would awaken with a flutter…

It won’t be so hard to look right into your eyes then, once I release my secrets and have nothing to hide.

But as the seconds in real life tick by, I would come to realize that this little piece of daydream is such a far cry from reality that its sweet melody would never reach here - this world - even in a thousand years.

And that’s when I cease to recognize any impulses to want anything, or anyone. Ever again.

I found the above written piece while doing some spring cleaning to my computer’s files last night.

This was me, about 4 years back. And it’s like stumbling upon a distant cousin that you don’t remember ever meeting before. I barely recognized the voice as my own - it seemed to be absolutely soaked in unfamiliar intensity. But then again, things were all kinds of crazy intense at that time. My life was filled with colourful characters of brilliant azure blues and the deepest darkest blood reds.

In between the cotton candy giggles-filled moments and hopeful childlike promises, fresh new drama would creep up amongst us every other day… Just imagine razorblade scars, empty liquor bottles, 5 AM tears, unspoken midnight trysts, and most of all, all the broken strings of friendships and relationships.

I wonder if we’d lost our innocence, or if it was innocence that left us because there’s just no place for it anymore? Hmm.

Anyway I suppose at some point, my soul had seen enough damage and eventually I just - stopped feeling. Not so acutely, at least. I was done with all the hurt and heartache, thanks.

Of course, how was I to know that on the day I stopped feeling… that was also when I stopped writing anything close to being real and honest?

The stress level is on the rise. Study groups are formed in every classroom I’ve walked past. I’ve been holding textbooks and notes in my hands till 2 AM every night…

Yeahh exams are coming, can you tell? :P

And still, some of us found the time to catch 10,000 BC at Mid Valley this evening, haha. *points at Bryan, Justin, and SCG* It was an okay movie for me, better than expected at least - though to be honest I didn’t have any expectations at all prior to watching it. There were quite a few LOL moments in between the solid action scenes, and the actress who played the main girl, Evolet, is sooo pretty! I wonder if her blue eyes are real… hmm.

All ritey, time to get back to revisions for exams. I so can’t wait till they’re over next week. Lotsa post-exam celebratory plans are in store, whee. :D